You took my heart away...

2008-05-14T16:30:00.002+08:00

I went to E-hub to catch a movie last night. As you know, there's a Cadbury wheel located right infront of the building. So when dearie saw the Cadbury wheel, this is what he said to me. "If you want me to ride on that wheel, well.... I will go. But if you want me to ride on the S'pore flyer, it's ok. I give it a pass..." Cheh!

Nevermindlah eh, i have another companion who is willing to ride that flyer with me. Hurh!

Tomorrow is dearie's big day. He's turning one year older... Everything is done & hopefully it will go smoothly. Keeping my finger cross...

2008-05-06T13:31:00.004+08:00

Gosh i'm so bored at work. Not much work as Japan having their golden week(holidays). Been reading people's blog, check my friendster, my facebook, etc. etc. etc.

My weekend... On Sat, true enuf i didn't went out with dearie. We were having a conflict & we're about to end our relationship but we talked things out & now we're back on track.... So much things happened & i don't wish to say it out. Lets bygone be bygone. Hopefully we learn from our mistakes, trust & treasure each other more.

On Sun, i went shopping with Diana. Get a few tops & slippers. Surveyed dearie's prezzie & finally i got one. Well, i planned to celebrate his b'day juz the both of us. (No outsiders allowed!) Romantik kan... So wat have i planned? Hmm... juz wait & see.

**Baby, after wat happened tat nite i realised tat at the end of the day i still need you & you still need me. We're not ready to let it go. And i promise you tis, for as long as you love me, i will only love you!**

2008-05-01T14:08:00.003+08:00

People are having fun outside but ME..... i'm stuck at work! Sigh! 1 more hour to go then i can get my ass off from here.

So after work, hmm.... going to Tekka to get some punjabi for my cousin's wedding. But wat colour should i choose? Red??? Or maybe... hmm, im not sure. Need to get my cuz's opinion bout tis. Hey! Diana is in town. Her flight juz departed at 2pm & sori babe can't pick u up at the airport cos im still stuck here!!! But i will meet u at home later aite. My mum & dad went to KL yesterday evening, left me & my sis... They will be back tis Sun... And my schedule for tis weekend.... Sat, going out wif dearie (i guess...) Sun, haf a date wif Diana. We're going SHOPPING.... Yeah! The moment tat i've been waiting for... Mon, i will be on leave. Hmm... maybe i should get my hair done.

And oh my god, it's 1st of MAY! I left wif 14 more days to plan for my dearie's bday... Gosh! Wat should i do for him tis year...???

2008-04-29T13:22:00.002+08:00

At times when u feel that you're on top of the world, there will be a day when u feel that everything seems to fall apart. A year has passed but i'm still not sure where is it heading too. Does he love me, does he not? Is he faithful, is he not?

Yes, he did give everything that i want, almost everything but does that show that he love me??? To be honest, i still have doubt bout this relationship. Am i over-reacting or am i just to scared to face the reality??? It's been 5 days we have not meet... Calls...? Not as frequent as it used to be.

*** Congrats to Wani & Yan for their first newborn baby, Mohd Nur Afiq on 27th April 2008 @1555hrs ***

2008-04-22T13:35:00.002+08:00

Everyday i get more afraid

Of giving my heart away

Scared of what love will bring

Too nervous to hear the words you'll say.

I find myself lost in you

Not sure if i want to be

I see the looks that you give

And wonder what you see in me.

I don't want my heart broken

But i'm so in love

I can't seem to give up

A guy sent from above.

So i'm gonna trust you

Please don't let me down

For i'm giving you a chance

To turn my life around.

Don't take it for granted

Cause it might not last long

I have a weak thoughts

And my heart isn't strong.

I'm putting my life in your hands

It's all up to you

I look forward to the place we go

And the thing we'll be put through.

But remember that i'm vurnerable

And i can't stand to hurt

I want to be at the top of your list

But i don't have to be the first.

Believe me when i tell you

That i love you with all my heart

That i'm here for you forever & always

Just like i was at the start...

2008-04-16T11:45:00.003+08:00

My condolence to my dearest fren, Elly, for the lost of her beloved mum yesterday.

It's hard when you lost someone that you love especially if it's your mum. The one who carry us in their womb for 9 mths, the one who screamed in pain when giving birth. It's hard, it's really hard.

Looking at her condition/circumstances, i just can't help myself but cried.

Elly, no matter wat you still have us ok gerl. I strongly believe that your mum is very proud to have a daughter like you. You have took care of her for more than a mth while she was admitted in the hospital. Sabar ok gerl. Yang pegi tetap akan pegi.

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat. Amin.

2008-04-02T20:28:00.003+08:00

I badly need a new handphone... It's not that my phone is not working. But i just feel that it's time for me to change a new one.

So one day my dearie asked me out. We went to Causeway Point to catch a movie & we watched the so boring & lame show, Semi-Pro. I rather watch Vantage Point than this stupid movie. But bcos he really wants to watch it so i juz go along. We had our dinner then it was time to go home. We were at the carpark when he surprised me with a M1 bag...

And wat's inside???

A Nokia 6500 slide phone, black colour... Wheee.... At last a new phone!

So now, we're using the same phone. He has the silver colour & mine is black. Perfect!

***Sweetheart, thank you for the gift. I'm sorry that i've forgotten to say thank you to you in person cos i was speechless! I'm loving it! Appreciate wat u have done for me. Thank you once again, bi... Love YOU!***

2008-03-31T15:35:00.003+08:00

28th March 2008, 2 of my frens celebrating their b'day. Naya, who is turning 21 & Ayu who is celebrating her 26th b'day.

I was invited to Ayu's b'day party but i didn't attend cos I need to accompany my dearie. On my way back, my sis called. She intend to give Naya a surprise. So i make my way to Bugis & get her a cake from TCC.

Since it's already late, we celebrate it at Pasir Ris Park. Coincidencely, I saw Ayu.

To Ayu, I'm sorry that I didn't get you anything & I really, really wanna say thank you for the foods. Thank you so, so much...

To the 2 gorgeous babes, Happy Birthday! All the best in your future endervours & may happiness lies within you... ;)

the b'day gerl

my sis & Naya

with Yat

Me...

Lastly Madd

2008-03-25T10:41:00.002+08:00

On last saturday, right after work me & dearie fetch Aniq at home & we head off to Joo Chiat to get dearie's thing. After that, dearie sent us to S'pore Expo as i've promised my mum to accompany her to watch Dewa Dewi 2008 organised by Zul Radi. My cuzzin is one of the 32 contestants... She's only 17[the youngest in the competition] & she has the potential to be a model. Here's some of the pics taken on that day,

Aisha

with her sis, Liza

To Aisha, all the best in the final... i know you can do it...

2008-03-22T11:18:00.002+08:00

Gosh i'm so bored at work... How i wish that i'm at home watching dvds in my room..... Sigh!

I have this new dvd which i know i will NEVER get bored eventhough i watch it every single day.... But now my dearie has confiscated it... =(

JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE: FUTURESEX/LOVESHOW, a concert event recorded at New York's Madison Square Garden

His concert was awesome!!! I really, really, really love the way he moves... Gosh, he makes the gerl in that stadium go insane. Will he ever make a concert tour for his S'porean fans??? I hope so... And even if 1 day Justin gonna make a concert here & my dear doesn't want to accompany me, hurh! I already have someone who is dying to watch it with me... Rite mas??? Well... mas has the same hobby as me now... ;) For those who have not watch his concert at Madison Square, i advise you to watch it. Trust me, you will never regret it...

2008-03-17T12:22:00.005+08:00

First of all, congratulation to Sophie & Liza for their engagement that was held last Saturday. May it will last till marriage, all the best & may happiness be with you guys always....

Secondly....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAD!. Turning 46 this year... I know he's young, more like a brother to me. But he's my dad & will always be my dad. Can't change that, so please accept the fact hokay! *bluek*
My mum organised a small party just for ur, one family. He has always dream of having this jersey as he has been supporting this team for ages. So here it is, MAN U jersey.

A gift from me & my dear. Hope you like it dad....

chocolate banana from Secret Recipe...

my dad & his beloved grandson...

2008-02-14T15:27:00.001+08:00

Friendship is a network
that need no recharge,
no roaming,
no activation,
no signal problems,
Just make sure
you don't switch off your heart

Friendship is like standing
on a wet cement...
the longer you stay,
the harder its to leave
and you can never go
without leaving your footprints...

One of the best moments
of life is to meet an
old friend after years
and feel that things haven't changed
and you realise how much
you missed having him around...

Friendship is needless,
like philosophy, like art
it has no survival value,
rather it is one
of those things that
give value to survival

Friendship is like a
tennis match;
To win, you have to serve well,
and always remember
it begins with love all

This message has no fat,
no cholestrol and no additives.
Only natural flavours of
care and love and joy
it contains sweetness
but not as SWEET as you

2008-02-11T16:08:00.000+08:00

Usually ppl get so excited when it comes to holiday season. Plan for holidays, outings, etc... etc... But for myself i have to get my ass off to work. Sigh! How i wish i can follow my damily to KL... I bet they has fun. But since i'm getting double pay for dragging myself to work, then it's worth it lah kan... =)

At night, i went to catch a movie with my sis, her bf & my dear. We watched CJ7 starring Steven Chow. If you wanna clear your mind from anything, this is the right movie to watch. You will laugh like hell & you just can't stop laughing like my sis... She even laugh before going to bed. Terbawa-bawa... And further more, CJ7 is so cute... Usually when you watched cartoon movie or even on tv, you will get to see the plush toys everywhere. But how come there isn't any for Alvin & the Chipmucks??? Hmm... Rite after the movie, we went to Mustapa Ctr. Me & my sis tried every perfumes on the showcase while the guys are so busy checking out the car accessories. Boring...

I had a very tiring CNY. I went out from noon till late night & it happened since last thurs to sun. I was to tired to go to work today but it makes me smile when i received ang paw from my boss. Eventhough i've been working there only for a mth, i still receive it. Cool kan... Guess how much i get... $*** [wink]

2008-01-30T13:25:00.000+08:00

I have not been updating my blog for quite sometimes... Not much changes after the new year, juz that i've got terminated from my job. After been there for 6 years plus!!! I had a conflict with my manager, and ya i've got terminated. Now i get to know from someone that he's unhappy with my ex-boss or something like that & he even said that if he has a better offer, he will resign. And after been in that co for 14-15 years, last year was his very 1st time not attending co's dinner... If he's unhappy with the boss or the co, why not he's the one to leave the co??? Why must he jeopardise my rice bowl???

But anyway, after i've got terminated, i've got a new job a week later. It's been a mth plus & i'm still waiting for them to pay my 13 mth salary... Hopefully they will call me tomorrow, if not, i'll be the one to call them! It's my money anyway...

And so, a new year, new co, new enviroment, new colleague & a new ME... Hehe...

2007-12-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

where has all my gerlfrens gone too.....??? i have not meet them for weeks.... too bz wif work till i dont have the time to hang ard wif my frens now... Gerls!!! Let's chill... How bout New Year eve??? Oh ya, 2008 is ard the corner. So wat's ur new resolution???

2007-12-18T12:57:00.000+08:00

I noe i have not been updating my blog for quite sometimes. Been bz lately & too stress wif live. As i've said on my previous update, my cousin Diana has finally become Mrs Naoufal Merezak. I'm happy + sad as now my closest cuz has become somebody's wife. We're closed since our childhood life. We stayed together, studied together, play together & even tutored together. We're more like sisters. And i can't believe that now she's married. At the end of the ceremony, i came to her to wish her all the best & when we were hugging each other, i cried & she cried too. Sad rite... She's the world best cuz i ever had. To u my lovely sister, i will always pray for your happiness, may u have a blissful marriage & may there'll be more babies to come. Insya'allah... And to u Naoufal, welcome to our family. Anyway here's the pic taken on my cousin's wedding.

7th December 2007, Nikah

Dinner held at Singgahsana Hall

my family

Its time to throw the bouquet... And the winner goes to....... ME!

9th December 2007, Sanding

Make up & Outfits by: Marlini [Zul Radi]
Pictures Taken by: Abg Zul [Zulphoto]
Dinner Held at: Singgahsana Hall [Kampung Melayu]
Sanding Held at: Multi-purpose hall [Pasir Ris]

2007-12-04T08:43:00.000+08:00

Can't wait for the weekend to come..... My cuz getting married, gonna be damn bz. Gonna put all my probs aside & focus on this occasion. So far so good, everything is in order & most of it has been settled. Well... wat can i say... I'm a good wedding planner indeed... LOL! Dinner on Friday & i'm gonna be her bridemaid. Gosh! It's like i'm the one who's getting married. I'm scared to death!!! Really, really hope that everything will be going as it's planned. [Keeping my finger crossed] Saturday, nothing much... Oh my, it's ZOUK OUT!!! Gotta sneak out, haf too. If i tell my mum, i noe she won't let me go as my cuz sanding the next day... Hmm.....

LOSING FAITH

2007-11-30T08:33:00.000+08:00

I was on my way to work & i feel so relief to see the calmness of the sea. It was so calm till i asked myself tis, "Why can't my life be as calm as it is???" I'm losing my appetite, i can't sleep well & i reali feels tat my brain is in a mess! Why do i haf to face one problem after another??? Why can't my life be as simple & happy like everyone else? Why do ppl like to see me/us miserable? Why am i to be blamed when i did nothing? Why, why, why?!?!?! I never ever hate ppl before cos u can't find it in my dictionary. But i believe in karma... And i always believe tat whenever u pointed a finger at someone, the rest of it is pointing back at u. Be strong, Lynn. Wateva it is, i know GOD has better plan for me.

2007-11-28T11:47:00.000+08:00

My life gonna be very, very hectic starting from tis week onwards... No more outing on weekdays! I'm working as a data entry at DHL courier service at night. So now i have 2 jobs!!! Morning from 7.30 am - 4.30 pm i'm working at my current job then from 5.00 pm - 11.00 pm work at DHL. People keeps asking me, "kau boleh tahan ke?" or "tak penat ke?". Well... org2 tua slalu cakap, nak seribu daya taknak seribu dalih... Cheh3x mcm betul jer aku ni... The only time that i'll be free will be on weekends... Sigh! Need to save up money lah... For future. Hahaha...

Dearie is down with fever... He was on m.c. last friday & juz return to work today, but the fever is still there. He was at my homey on sun... Did wateva i could to get his fever gone but it comes & go. To u my dear, pls get well soon... Missing u baby...

2007-11-22T09:10:00.000+08:00

Congratulation to my colleague Mazlan for his engagement on last Sunday. May u & Siti will last till eternity.

His fiancee looks sweet in pink...

My Notorious Nephew

2007-11-19T16:55:00.000+08:00

Hey, my name is Aniq Qusyairi... I'm 2 years old & i love to sing & dance. Just tell me any r&b songs & i will sing it for you... Till then see ya!

my buddy in crime

dance with me baby...

wait! before u go, take a look at tis...

rite..... how do i look??? ;)

2007-11-07T13:08:00.000+08:00

Everyone is afraid to fall in love, so am i...

But i'm falling head over heel for my dearie now...

And last week, this is wat i received from him...

Thanks for all the gifts that u haf given me dear...

You do pampered me alot! I appreciate wateva u haf done for me...

Now, wat should i get for u??? Nokia N95? Hmm.....

2007-11-06T12:59:00.000+08:00

I already have my family hari raya photo with me now. But it's too dark & i feel like there's no point publishing it on my blog... But still if you guys wanna see it then here it is... Hehe. [Try to find me if you can *wink*]

2007-10-30T13:15:00.000+08:00

My oh my... Dearie having a bad mood since saturday. He lost his keys & been searching all over for it. At home no where to be find... He told me to search in the car but still i can't find it either till he called his colleague to pass him the office key in case he left it at work. He seached in the car again since it's not in the office... And guess wat..... It's in the car, rite under my seat! Ahh... Opps... Sori. Hehe... Ok fine i'm to be blamed. Lucky for me, he's not that mad...

And yesterday, it's even worse. He knocked off early juz bcos he has already make plan wif me. He left all his work & off we go. But things went wrong when he called back the office. To clear things up, we went back. On the way to the office, his mood has already changed & he keeps on nagging & nagging. Telinga aku punye lah berdesing... And gerls, if your man is not in a mood the only thing u can do is to take out ur hp, press the menu button, click on application & start playing wateva games u have... Keeps on playing & be silence... Only talk to him when he start to ask u question but in a nice way... I'm not sure if it's gonna work on u but it works for me... We cancelled our plan & bought food for dinner. Reached my block, he pass my food & a bouquet of flowers... [Surprise... surprise...] Alah..lah..lah... Sweet nye. Red roses lagi. He msg me & said hope u like it.. Baby, i don't like it but i LOVE it & bi, i'm loving it as much as i love you... *wink**wink*

2007-10-26T17:56:00.000+08:00

To my beloved sister, NurAshikin...

Happy 20th Birthday!!!

Wateva happened in your past i really hope u take it as a lesson... Let bygone be bygone... Open a new chapter. No matter wat, sibling will always be sibling. I know i never say this before... Well... I love you sis!!! Be happy always & may god bless you...

2007-10-24T11:25:00.000+08:00

HARI RAYA OUTING

I don't really celebrate raya this year. All i know, i went to my grandparent's house on the 1st day of raya & tat's it. And last Sun, i went raya outing with my kakis. [i still have to upload my family pic. But i know for sure that the pic is dark cos 95% of us are wearing BLACK... Lol] Below are the pics taken on Sun. Have fun...

me & my cuz, Syahidah

my crib

dear's house... at last for my very 1st time, i get to meet his mum. scared though...

wani & yan with their new ride

me & dear with our ride

yan with the STAR

macam twins tak?

THE END!

2007-10-12T09:55:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone... How's your hari raya preparation going? As for me... I still have alot of things to do. I have not clean up the mess in my room nor the hall, i still have 1 more cookies to make... I'm not sure if i can finished everything by today... And further more, my dearie will be having his iftar wif his frens & he wants me to join in. How eh...?

And to Fezah... Wat a coincidence that you'll be wearing the same colour as me... Hehe... Sista 4eva. Oh ya, send my regard to mummy & daddy aite.

And to all my friends, doesn't matter if you're my blogger frens or frens at friendster or whoever who has been reading my blog i would like to wish u, "Selamat Hari Raya... Maaf jika ada terkasar bahasa ataupun salah & silap, harap dimaafkan..." Alright guys, i got to go. Have a great weekend & Happy Hari Raya...

2007-10-04T15:52:00.000+08:00

I've been having a negative thinking about my relationship. I'm not saying that he's been unfaithful or did something bad towards me... He did nothing wrong at all. It's just ME! Whatever that happened to me in my past relationship makes me feel so unsecure. I wanna be strong & be a positive person that I used to be... But how? I am such a LOSER! Hate myself! I am totally unfair towards my dear & I feel so guilty...

2007-10-02T14:20:00.000+08:00

I'm really grateful that my dear can get along with all my friends either the guys or the gerls. We went to JB to celebrate Elly's birthday. Altogether there's 6 couples & not forgetting Yan & Sam. We head to their bazzar Ramadhan right after we reached JB. The whole stretch of that bazzar is full of foods... Me & dearie can't even decide what to eat. We had fun & hopefully my dear had fun too. To Elly, Happy 24th Birthday... All the best in your future endeavours gerl... [pics will upload soon]

me & dearie

me & yan

mas & nasir

elly & hafiz

nurul & joe

Next day, accompany dearie to get his Mont Blanc wallet & Adidas pants. My sis & her son was there too. After my dear gets the things that he wants, we went to Marina Square to have our break fast. Can u imagine that small kid can finished up a plate of spaghetti??? He did ok... Incredible hulk betul...

ok thats me & my dearie...

that's us with small kid

& that's not me!

2007-09-28T11:14:00.000+08:00

I've been forbidden from eating fried mars again... My colleague went to get fried mars last nite after i told him how tempting it is. He ordered 3 sets of it then suddenly a customer asked the staff,"Can i know wat sausage is tat?" Then the staff replied,"It's a pork sausage." Gosh, i didn't know bout tat. I feel so guilty. When i told dearie bout it, biasalah kena marah... Haiz, now if i really wanna have tat fried mars, i have to make it myself... I'm craving for it already...

2007-09-24T15:38:00.000+08:00

[sob... sob...] Gonna miss my dearie..... He has an attachment at Tuas for a week!!! Although he did send me to work tis morning, i'm missing him already... He wants to have his break fast with me today but his work is too far. By the time he fetch me, it is already 7+... Alah bi... can't wait to meet u tis weekend lah. Missing u badly...

2007-09-18T15:19:00.000+08:00

Me & my dear went to geylang to get some food for our break fast. Since he has work to do, he intend to finish his work at Starbucks. While we were on our way to City Hall Starbucks my dear said tis to me,"Eh tu blackbird... Ur ex eh?" I turn to see if that person is really him. How heartbreaking it was to see him with his gf on tat BIKE! I know i shouldn't feel this way but tat bike has alot of memories. Sad... Happy... Good... Bad... I still can remember till now, how badly he wants tat bike... And when u are in love, u intend to give wateva he/she wants... Tat's wat i did! If my heart is made of paper, it has been torn into pieces & if my heart is made of glass, it has shattered. But i noe the hurt won't be as bad as before cos i haf u, sweetheart. U took my heart away & i'm so in love wif u. Thank u for spending time wif me & everything. MUACKS!!!!

2007-09-17T13:16:00.000+08:00

I had a tiring weekend... Saturday, right after work i went home straight. I was about to take a nap suddenly my dear called me. With my sleepy voice i picked up his call. He's on his way to my place... And guess for wat??? To wash his car... HAIZ... Dahlah tgh puasa, abih nak kena cuci kereta... He's trying to test my faith i guess. Hmm... After washing, then we took a nap. Wake up at 6, get everything ready for our break fast. It was my dear 1st time breaking fast at my homey with my family... Dia nye makan kusmangat... Hahaha... After our break fast, did his homework as per normal. But this time, i have to write the notes for him... Hehe... Baik kan, the kind of gerl that every guys is looking for... Ya rite! He slept over at my house & the next morning about 10am me & dearie went JB. Then we went to get tickets at Cathay for the movie 'Now i pronounce you Chuck & Larry'. The movie was so, so hilarious... Should watch, worth watching... You will laugh till the end of the show... Reached home at 11.30pm & that's wat i did for my weekend. Sigh!

2007-09-17T12:46:00.000+08:00

I just can't believe whatever i saw this morning. I was on my way to work & there's an accident occured at Upper Changi Road. It affect 2 lanes... I thought it's juz a minor accident where 2 cars bang each other BUT actually it was worse than that! It really shocked me when i saw a body lying in the middle of the road. A car has knocked a bike from behind & the body was lying there motionless. Gosh i really pity the rider & the family too. What if i know that rider? What if he's one of my relative? What if it happends to our love ones? 'Ya Allah, jauhkan lah segala rintangan dan bencana dari kami, hamba-hamba mu ini.' To all the riders or even if you drive your own car, please, please, please drive carefully. We're here in this world for a very short period, do love yourself like how you love your love ones...

2007-09-15T10:04:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Where my dear gonna bring me out today??? Last night we had our break fast at Balestier as we gonna catch a movie after tat. Kecian dia, he was too stressed up wif his work... After our break fast we sat there for about an hour; he was doing his homework [writing notes] while i, sitting there, looking at wateva he was writing... Then... he wants me to ask him question bout his work. For goodness sake, after reading & reading his notes, i'm still not sure wat should i ask... Hahaha... Yes, i'm doing airfreight but i noe NUTS bout seafreight... Well, don't wanna disappoint him so i juz asked him the steps tat he needs to do... At least i help, rite? Haha.

Hun, there's never been a day tat u fail to make me smile... I'm glad & thank God tat i haf someone like u to love, to cry & to live for. My life has never been the same cos now i haf us to look forward to & bcos of you, every breath that i take has a meaning now, not only to live but also to love... Lastly, i thank u, bcos u returned my love tat i haf for u sincerely. All in all, i juz wanna say tat i'm here to walk the paths of life together wif u. Love u baby...

2007-09-10T14:40:00.000+08:00

Sorry to Fezah... for not attending Ayu's wedding together. My dear was to tired after we gave his 'BABY' a car wash... Frankly, i was looking forward to meet u on Ayu's wedding. Dah lama tak meet kan. So sorry tau...

How's my weekend? Well, i went to Ayu's wedding at nite & oh my GOD, Ayu was so, so gorgeous... Really sweetheart u really are... :) I don't have any pic of us together cos my stupid hp is spoilt!!! Irritating! But i hope Ayu will pass me the pic one day. Looking forward for it... Hehe.

Right after the wedding, we met Elly & Hafiz at Marina to catch a movie. We watched 'No Reservation'. Nice movie, should watch... After movie, Elly wanna have supper but my dear dah too sleepy so we head home. Hun, boring lah u ni... The nite is still young, u wanna go home pulak... Hehe. Juz joking ok. Love u! Hehe...

Sunday, i had a feast at my aunt's house. 3 occasions at 1 time. Cukur rambut, my cousin's 1st wedding anniversary & my aunt's birthday... As usual, i'll be the video lady but i didn't record much cos i was so damn tired. Reached homey around 10+ but i can't close my eyes... SIGH! But at least my weekend isn't tat bored like it used to be... ;)

2007-09-08T11:49:00.000+08:00

On wednesday, my dear came over to my house to watch Rahsia Perkawinan together... U know wat, we keep on arguing bout the words of wisdom tat show before& after the advertisement. Funny seh... After watching tat show, i accompany him to Paya Ubi to get his 'BABY' done. U know guys, when it comes to their personal thing, his 'BABY' is their main priority... When his 'BABY' is well touch-up we went home. By the time, it was already 12+. Too sleepy, so he ended up sleeping at my home...

And yesterday, i had a course at Republic Polytechnic. The course ends at 5.30... I don't know wat the hell i went to tat course for cos i don't seem to understand or should i say concentrate on wateva the lecturer was teaching. I guess my company wasted their $200 on me. But at least i do get a certificate... Hahaha... My dear fetch me at woodlands then we went straight to JB. Thanks for picking me up dear...

Today, is a big day for my fren Ayu. I wanna wish her all the best & congrats tat she's finally get married after been together wif her guy for so long. May u have a blissful marriage & may it last forever... [Fezah, i meet u later aite]

Till then, have a great weekend.

2007-09-03T12:56:00.000+08:00

After we've been arguing so much, he's back in my life...

Is he the one for me???

Is he the one i'm looking for???

Is he the one who gonna cherish me???

And is he the one who gonna be wif me thru ups & downs??

I'm leaving it to fate.

As for now, i'm happy... At least there's someone who fills my empty heart.

To you my dear, thanks for giving me the opportunity to be your gerl, your best friend & even your soul mate. I will treasure you as much as i treasure myself.

Hopefully our relationship will last till eternity.

Insya'allah. Amin.

2007-08-29T14:47:00.000+08:00

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best.

If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love.

Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, it is to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get beckon the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time.

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self; to love is to risk not to be loved in return. How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow.

Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love 'coz every time we do, we get hurt, and then I figured that's why it's called falling in love.

In the pursuit for that so-called true, perfect & everlasting love, many people choose to give up on what they presently own and they choose to forgo the opportunities that comes along…Until when they truly lose what they have, then they realise that they have not only given up their happiness but they have done something that they may regret forever..
How long does it take for someone to realise that..

Love doesn’t have to be perfect; Love may not be everlasting but what’s most important is the faith, trust & determination you have to make that relationship lasts... The more hopes and promises you put into a relationship, the heavier your burden will be and the more disappointed you will feel when it doesn’t work out... Try not to judge, measure or compare love, for love is something that nobody can truly grasp or understand...

When in love, you may feel like on the top of the world and being the happiest person ever alive... When out of love, your world may come crushing down on you and you truly feel that you are better off dead…Suddenly, loneliness, pain and hurt is all that you have left in your empty heart...

Love is volatile, fragile and can change as easily... So set love free and love without reservations, restrictions, expectations or wanting anything in return... This way you may truly find love... It may not turn out to be the love you wanted but love is to give, compromise, accommodate and to accept without any conditions... So never limit yourself to only look for love by your standards... Don’t hide from love when it comes knocking on your door, cherish it & appreciate it while it’s with you.

Some people may never recover from the wounds inflicted by love... Especially when you gave your heart and soul to someone and that person just stepped onto it and throws it back right in your face... Then, they walk away without even looking back, while you writhed in sorrow and desperation, trying very hard to get your life back cause your world has ceased to exist without that person... Life and love is unfair... Many a times, we aren’t given a choice. But we can choose to let go and move on, remember that letting go is painful but holding on in vain is even more so...

For whatever good things or luck that comes your way, enjoy it and treat it as a surprise but don’t hold on too tight to it. For whatever bad things or misfortune that has befallen upon you, don’t despair or be too sad, for it may turn out to be a blessing in disguise.

Lastly, be contented with all that you have now. Cherish even those little things that may seem unimportant to you now, because they may be those things that you never realise its importance until you lose them... Do not be envious of what others have or lament over what you don’t have, because you never know what troubles those “seemingly good” things may bring..

2007-08-22T12:58:00.000+08:00

Why do people lie??? Why must they lie to their love ones??? And why must it happened to us, ladies??? When we're so sincere, waited patiencely for their calls or even their msg & wat we get back in return is all a lie...? Told them tat we're heading to bed & the next moment you know he was out there somewhere... Hurt doesn't it? Tats not how i feel but tats how a fren of mine is facing thru... She doesn't even know wat actually happened to her love life... All she know was, her bf was busy working... YA RITE! Work his ASS up... Eventhough there're times when he told the truth like he's going out with his frens to the club or wat so ever, so wat? Does he really went wif his frens or GF? Sigh! I'm so, so pity for you gerl... You trust a guy who has been lying to you all this while... And you even caught him red handed before... Wat makes you tink he changed?! Wake up to the reality... Ask yourself why... If you can't get the ans, let me say it out. Cos you're asking too much!!! Forcing people to do things tat you tink it's best for your relationship, will never work! So stop being a moron! And for the matter of fact, you're putting yourself down! Thats worst...

2007-08-15T16:38:00.001+08:00

I'M EXHAUSTED!!!!

Too much work, didn't get enough rest/sleep, complicated relationship, get too emotional lately... Gosh! Wat's happening to me??? My work load is too much for me to handle now. Trying my best to get rid all the shipments & documents on my desk as soon as possible. Accounts chasing for payment. I feel like an idiot! While trying to push myself with all these work, there's my manager, surfing the net! ARGH!!! Seriously, i'm sick & tired of this job! F**K!!!! I can't even rest or get to sleep in peace coz my body is aching like hell & another reason i keeps on thinking bout him? Has he reached home? Or is he out there with his frens??? Our relationship seems to be far apart right after i'm back from Tioman. It's juz a small misunderstanding but it was our ego tat makes our relationship turn sour. End up, we agreed to be frens like we used to be...

I'm trying hard to accept you & your love, i promise... If u can only give me the time & chance.

i'm not the type to get my heart broken

i'm not the type to get upset and cry

cause i never leave my heart open

never hurts me to say goodbye

relationships don't get deep to me

never got the whole in love thing

and someone can say they love me truely

but at the time it didn't mean a thing

my mind is gone, i'm spinning round

and deep inside, my tears i'll drown

i'm losing grip, what's happening

i stray from love, this is how i feel

this time was different

felt like, i was just a victim

and it cut me like a knife

when you walked out of my life

now i'm, in this condition

and i've, got all the symptoms

of a girl with a broken heart

but no matter what you'll never see me cry

did it happen when we first kissed

cause it's hurting me to let it go

maybe cause we spent so much time

and i know that it's no more

i shoulda never let you hold me baby

maybe why i'm sad to see us apart

i didn't give to you on purpose

gotta figure out how you stole my heart

how did i get here with you, i'll never know

i never meant to let it get so, personal

after all i tried to do, stay away from loving you

i'm broken hearted, i can't let you know

and i won't let it showyou won't see me cry

all my life...

2007-08-10T16:07:00.000+08:00

Tis is 4 all the beautiful gerls out there.... Enjoy! ;)

2007-08-07T15:17:00.000+08:00

Last night... Had a birthday celebration for Caca at El-Sheikh. The place & food is nice but the service was bad... We waited for 30 mins for our food! I had Shish Kebab. I was so hungry but i can't finish it up... Need to take care of my diet, you know... Too many people has given comment... Tat i'm FAT!!!! ARGH.... Gosh, i really, really need to slim down. I have a very difficult time putting on weight last time & people will come to me and say,"Kurus nah kau ni... Gi lah makan banyak sikit..." But now, people came to me and say,"Happy kau skarang... Semua nye naik..." I really find it irritating seh... Just can't accept the fact that i'm FAT! Even my mum said i'm fat... Ish! Bingit nye!!! Ok enough bout tat, we get Caca a b'day cake & a bracelet from Perlini's Silver. Hope you like it gal... May happiness be with you always. Love ya! [pics will have to wait for Hanim & Zana to upload it. so enjoy waiting... LOL!]

2007-08-02T11:07:00.000+08:00

3 Days 2 Nights at Tioman

1) The place is lame....

2) The exciting part is the snorkeling....

3) The best part is..... WE MAKE IT HAPPEN!!! [rite guys...]

Before we went for our Tioman trip, we [Mas, Nasir, Sam, Wani, Yan & me] went to catch a movie at Cineleisure... We watch 'The Simpson' at 0145hrs... And guess wat, we slept! Hahaha... Cerita dah merepek, waste time watching... After movie, we went to Mustafa Centre to get some toiletries. Next stop, KTM... Had our early breakfast & i would like to thank to a very generous lady who gave us $$$ before we went for our holiday. May God bless u dearie.... Hahahaha....[Mas if u read tis, i bet u noe wat im talking about. LOL!] 0600hrs, met Elly & Hafiz at Newton. At 0630hrs we went off to Mersing. (,")

On the nite itself....

Day 1

Day 2

Last Day

2007-07-23T13:18:00.000+08:00

Go Alynna, it's your birthday...

We gonna party like it's your birthday...

YEAH!!! Finally, the day has come... I'm turning 1 year older but i'm still young at heart ok... It's just the number that makes me feel old... Hehehe. Anyways..... I wanna say thanks to my primary schoolmate[Aisha, Dewi, Zana & Hanim] for celebrating my b'day in advance... They gave me a bouquet of flowers with a teddy holding it. Thanks to my cuz, Kak Farah, for making a small occasion especially for the July babies. Oh ya, thanks for the prezzie too. To those who sms me on the nite itself[Fezah, Azmey, Kak Lily, Arab, Suraya, Rais, Idah, Caca, Dewi, Aunty Wama, Nadesh, Elly, Mas, Aiza, Madd, my sis, my mum & my dad]. U guys are so sweet... Thanks a zillion. And to my dearie, thank u so, so much... U're the 1st person to wish me. Love u baby... *muacks*

my b'day gift

our b'day cake

the july babies [not really babies...]

At night my dearie treat me at Secret Recipe... I had fish & chip & for himself i donno wat he had. After we had the main course, he ordered 2 slice of cakes. 1 is mango delight & 1 chocolate banana... I have to give a double thumb up for mango delight. The cake was superb!!! Sorry no pic... Lazy nak pose...

2007-07-17T15:34:00.000+08:00

Wat's on my mind now....

Hmm...

PARTY!!!

HOLIDAY!!!

Can't wait for the time to come...

Counting the days....

Hehehe. (,")

2007-07-10T12:48:00.000+08:00

07.07.07

The date where most people get engaged or married...

And my fren Joe get engaged to his gerlfren of 2 yrs, Nurul.

These cupcakes are specially for Joe & Nurul from us... Made by Elly... Lawa kan! I really, really love these cupcakes... To Joe & Nurul, hopefully this engagement will last forever... Muacks!

2007-07-05T12:46:00.000+08:00

Have u ever been in a car wif your guy friend & on every journey both of you didn't say a word??? Unless you guys are having an arguement lah... But that's wat i've been thru yesterday. Thank goodness, at least the radio was on. Hahaha... We went to catch a movie Transformers at Balestier. Thanks to the movie too, at least there's some part which we can laugh about. Things seems to get abit better while watching the movie but after the movie... back to square one. Sigh! Actually he was mad at me juz bcos of my stupid hp bill!!! Juz imagine, for only 2 mths my bill can get up to $600+. I was totally shocked! I called the customer service & told them to check if they make any error but they said NO. While having a puff, he keeps asking me bout my bill. Why tis, why tat.... I was so damn stress tat i don't even noe wat to answer. I noe he's concern but the lecture was too much for me. I feel like screaming myself out. Juz can't help it... On the way back home, still the same. Didn't talk to each other & not only that i don't have the guts to look at him either. The funny part, since dia nak act sombongkan he drive pun overshot... Hehehe... Once under my block, i try to break the ice. And slowly, everything back to normal... Susah betul.

To you dearie, i'm sorry for wat happened aite. I noe u are concerned. I promise, i will settle everything soon.

2007-07-03T15:19:00.000+08:00

I had a wonderful weekend...

Meet up wif my frens at Bukit Timah's McDonalds to discuss bout our upcoming holiday... Where to??? TIOMAN... Just can't wait for the day. But sad enough, i'm going alone... The rest are all couples. SIGH! But i'm fine wif it. I can enjoy myself to the fullest without anyone stopping me... Hahaha. Rite after discussing bout the trip we head to Village Bali. OMG! The place is so, so cozy. A suitable place for a first date... But if u ask me where it is, i'm not really tat sure. But it's a place that u must go. No regrets! Trust me... Had a couple of drinks then next stop, Labrador Park. Chit chatting by the sea... Nice. While chit chatting then Yan teased me. Don't seem to remember wat he said at first but he told me to look ahead to look at the guy who is approaching us. At first i tot tat person is a bangladesh guy. Hahaha... Serious! Cos it was so dark. Then Wani said if this turns up well, hutang selesai... I was confused cos i really don't know wat are they talking about. When the guy came nearer & nearer, oh shit! It was Shafie. The guy tat i saw on Yan's wedding... The guy that once i wanna get to know... Everyone was laughing at me... Yan keeps on teasing me till Shafie left. Haiz... The last time i saw him was 3 mths ago. And there he was... looking smart as usual. Cair seh... Argh...

But wateva it is, i can't wait for the Tioman trip & i really, really had a wonderful nite. Thks guys. Frens tat will be wif me till the end of time. Insya'allah. And guess wat, most of us were wearing green on tat day... Celebrating world warming in advance... Hehe.

2007-06-24T19:55:00.000+08:00

I received a message from Kak Lily at 10am today saying that she has given birth to a baby boy weighing 3.26kg at 0410hrs... I have a new nephew!!! Yeah! To Kak Lily & Abg Sham congrats on your new born son. Hopefully there will be more babies to come. Hahaha... Here's the pic....

Mummy & Son

Hi everyone.....

2007-06-20T15:37:00.000+08:00

I met my gerl friends yesterday...

It's been awhile since i last met them. I miss you gerls... Well everyone was there Mas, Elly, Wani & Nurul... Met them at raffles after work, chill out at coffee bean while waiting for Wani to reach. She told me that she'll be reaching there by 7+ but till 8pm tak timbul2. Janji melayu betul... Hahaha... It's actually my fault. I told her that we're at Clarke Quay Coffee Bean when there's no Coffee Bean at Clarke Quay. Sorry gerl, my fault... It's supposed to Boat Quay. Hahaha... Kesian member kena walk from Clarke Quay to Boat Quay. Sorry eh... So when she reached, we had our dinner at Sham Alam. Since we have alot of things to talk about, we went to Clarke Quay to have a drink. U know when it's a gerls' night out we don't intend to look at the time. Berbual punya berbual it was almost midnight. My sis was there too after she went to a party at Sentosa. We went our separate ways at 12+. Ok, now it's time to wish all these lucky people that i love...

1) Happy 25th Birthday to Hafiz... May all your wishes comes thru & hopefully you will get married soon.

2) Congrats to Nurul & Joe who gonna get engaged on 7.7.2007

3) Congrats to you too... I heard that you gonna get engaged. All the best. =)

Of all the 4 gerls that i went out with, i'm the eldest & single... But no worries, everyone already promise to sponsor something when i get married. Hahaha... Lucky me. And Mas, please eh i don't need any gula2 HACKS for my gubahan. [bluek]

2007-06-18T13:46:00.000+08:00

How's your weekend???

Well, last saturday was my nephew's 2nd birthday... Woke up in the morning to get ready all the stuffs, the decoration, the balloons, arrange the chairs, etc., etc., etc. At 11am sent my nephew for haircut, took his b'day cake & his suit for the day. Usually if i sent him for a haircut, he will cry like HELL. But on that day when my dad sent him, no tear at all! Perangaikan budak kecik ni... When his hair is done, he can even give me a smile & telling me to look at his new haircut. Geram seh...

At 5pm, everyone was there but the b'day boy was asleep... SIGH! Have to wait for him to wake up then the party can start... He was so overwhelming with the gifts that he gets. Now my house is in a mess with all the remote control cars. He had about 5 of them... HAIZ...

Sunday planned to wake up late but at 10+ Azan called me up. He wanna catch a movie & asked me to tag along. So i get myself ready & at 12+ he fetch me at home. We went to Vivo City to watch Fantastic 4. The show is really nice BUT the small kid sit next to me is irritating. He keeps on asking his mum,"Mummy, why is it like this? Mummy, what happened?" And when he laughed, it's like nobody business... And thats not all. There's another kid chit chatting right behind us... Wat a day??? Ok now, let's view the pics. [the bday pics will upload later]

Us with specs

Spec on his head

No spec at all [lol]

2007-06-07T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.... I'm back...

On the night before i went to KL, i spent my night with this friend of mine. His name is Azan. He's nice... I like... Hahaha.

How's my trip??? Hmm... It was fun & abit boring... I spent my time mostly at my cousin's place. The only place that i went was Time Square & not forgetting Petaling Street. Hehehe... Did my waxing & manicure at Time Square & get some stuffs at Petaling Street. On Saturday was a busy day... My cousin held her daughter's birthday party & 'cukur rambut' for her new born son. How lucky my niece is... She had a huge b'day cake from Sweet Secret & her mum gets McDonald's to organise the party... Best kan... But it was really a tiring day... Ok when you're in M'sia, what is the first thing on your mind??? As for me, it will be A&W & Dunkin' Donut... Hahaha... I was craving for rootbeer float... Lagi2 bila the weather is HOT. Shiok kan... And i get 3 boxes of Dunkin' Donut. Gelojoh seh... Well, that's me. These are the things which i must get when i'm in M'sia. Ok enuf bout tat. I took leave till Tuesday. Rest for a day & had a date with Azan the next day. ;)

2007-05-30T11:26:00.000+08:00

I'm strike with a flu again!!! I donno why, but i do get sick easily... I'm going to KL with my family tomorrow as Kak Yan has given birth to her 2nd child early this month. It's a boy & his name is Mohd Shahmil Nawfal... So Kak Lily, i think you need to get a new name for your upcoming son. Yup, i'm gonna have a nephew again in 2 weeks time. Insya'Allah... But what a coincidence that you wanna named your son the same as Kak Yan... As for now, i'm trying to be as energetic as i can be. Keep asking myself, am i able to go??? Do i have the strength??? Can my body take it??? Or will i get any better later??? SIGH! I really wanna go... To have some peace in mind without thinking bout anything back here. Hopefully this panadol extra gonna help. *chuckles*

To Azmey... Don't forget to get me some souvenir at Bali aite... See ya when you're back. *wink*

Hoping to get better by tonight... Need to have fun before my KL trip... Hahaha.

2007-05-28T09:58:00.000+08:00

This is to a person who tagged me last week, telling me to move on... I believe you have been reading my blog regularly or maybe you know me really well. I'm really curious, hoping that you will reply me back but when i keeps on reading the message that you sent me then i realised. Someone ever said this words to me... "life is too short to be stuck in a moment u neveer want to be..." Maybe you're the person i'm referring to, maybe you're not. Telling me to move on, how nice... Have you? To you, thanks for dropping by & thanks for the message... Appreciate it. Take good care of yourself...

2007-05-23T11:50:00.002+08:00

I've been moody lately.

The plain white wall that im starring at seems to scribble how my life gonna be... I know i'm not myself. I have to wake up & face the reality. But why do i think of him lately??? Of all the person that i've known, why must the person that broke my heart is the one that i think off?! Is he thinking of me too??? No! That doesn't seems to be & will never be. And why do whenever someone hug me i feels like he's the one hugging me?! GOSH!

Dear God, please help me... Please make me strong to overcome all the circumstances that i'll be facing next... Amin

2007-05-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

I NEED TO BE STRONG.....

2007-05-14T14:06:00.000+08:00

I had a very tiring weekend.... Firstly on saturday, i have to go to work. Intend to take a nap when i reached home but my sis keeps disturbing me & it's ANNOYING! Really annoying... So i end watching my bro & madd played PS2.

At nite, went to DXO to watch 3 Way St perform... It was their 1st performance but they're good. Reached home at 4+ had a few hours sleep then by 11am went out wif my family to the zoo... Didn't take any pics cos its raining & was too tired to take any. After the zoo outing, met my aunties & uncles at East Coast for a picnic. Its juz a small gathering to celebrate Mother's Day... Then later at nite, we had dinner at Simpang Bedok. The place is so, so packed & we waited for an hour to get our food! Sigh!

But i had fun especially the gathering... I'm a family gerl & i really love when it comes to tis... ;)

2007-05-09T10:54:00.000+08:00

I went to Sentosa yesterday celebrating tis guy belated birthday... Had our lunch 1st at Vivo City then we took a train to Sentosa. We alight at Beach Station.

Me & rais in the train to Sentosa

I'm not sure when was the last time i went there... There's alot of changes. Usually there's a show at musical fountain rite but now they held it at the beach. The place is so, so beautiful.... I really like it but didn't get the opportunity to step inside cos the door open at 7.45pm. Sigh! I will definitely go to tat place. Hang ard at the beach after tat we took the Skyride. The ride is quite scary but thank goodness it's not tat high...

Can't decide where to go so end up we went to Underwater World. Of all the creatures that i saw, i really like tis... Hmm... I wish i can hold them.

We're supposed to go to Dolphin Lagoon but we don't haf the time as we need to rush for a movie. Fezah... I already watch Spiderman 3 & yes the show is nice... Really, really nice. I don't mind watching it again...

On the way home...

2007-05-09T10:35:00.000+08:00

To Elly & Hafiz... Sincerely from my heart, wishing u guys all the best & congratulation on ur engagement... U guys really have to give me a treat tau... Hehe... If not bcos of me, u guys will never get to know each other... So let me know when is the treat ok. Hahaha.... ;)

p/s. Mas... im still waiting for u to upload our pics.

2007-05-03T11:54:00.000+08:00

I dated tis guy yesterday... Coincidencely we wore the same colour... Hmm.... Was supposed to catch movie but they only have Spiderman 3... Sigh! Really, really wanted to watch a movie. It has been months since the last time i watch... The last movie was... DEJAVU! When was tat huh? Last year? Or early tis year? Haha... End up we had our dinner then he sent me home... Well, we can always watch it next time. When both of us are free... *wink*

Any gerls interested can always meet him at Mirama Hotel... He's a bartender... Haha... Pls don't me mad at me. *wink**wink*

I forgot something... His name is Azmey.

2007-04-30T14:54:00.000+08:00

Ok, like i've said im meeting tis guy last saturday & here is our pic. Btw, his name is Nadesh... I was having my late lunch with my sis & her boyfriend when he arrived. The same old Nadesh... Teasing people is his favourite past time. He will go, "hey lynn, check tat gerl out... crazy or wat? wearing sweater in tis sunny afternoon." And there's tis guy wearing an unbutton shirt & he goes, "is he ok or not? tell him to button up his shirt..." We were walking towards lucky plaza & CK was promoting their new perfume at Tangs. It's CK in2u & i really, really like it. I do get a sample... Hehe. Went to Takashimaya as he needs to get a diary. Tot of having our dinner at Wisma but the food court was too crowded. End up having it at Burger King . By then Nadesh has to go off. Need to meet his friend... Well bro, nice meeting u & pls stop checking ppl A**! Hahaha... Kidding...

Me & Nadesh aka Nas [bluek....]

Us at Burger King

After dinner, we went to Chips to have a couple of drinks then meet Elly at Starbucks. We are supposed to meet Wani & Mas but Elly can't wait tat long so we haf to postpone the meeting.

2007-04-28T11:47:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure if i did the right thing. I saw Faizal on the msn & i did send him a msg.... Erm... Did i do anything wrong??? Anyway it's just a normal msg... Hopefully he won't tell his bro bout tis.

Well... i'm going to town later. Gonna meet tis guy... Hahaha. When was the last time we met huh??? Last year i guess... Hmm... Maybe. There's alot of things tat we need to catch up bro. Oh.. oh.. don't forget to take pics later aite. Hahaha.

And to all my blogger friends, have a great weekend.

2007-04-24T16:21:00.000+08:00

I miss my gerlfriends....

Especially Aisha, Dewi, Zana... Have not been meeting them for a month i guess. As for Hanim, aku tak payah miss kau lah cos i meet u almost everyday... Hehehe... When are we meeting up? Zana, tried to view ur blog but my pc asik lagging jer...

Someone is picking me up after work... Hahaha. Sweet kan... But i donno why i feel tat there's a butterfly in my stomach. It's not the 1st time i meet tat person. Hmm, why eh?

Fezah, missing u lah. Are we meeting up next week? Let me know when ok. But preferable on Friday cos im not working the next day. ;)

2007-04-17T10:57:00.000+08:00

My body is weak & aching. Too tired to do anything...

I wanna go home...

I should get 2 days mc instead of 1 day seh... The giddiness is getting from bad to worse.

Nearly pass out while taking my shower.

Got to go. Bye!

2007-04-11T16:50:00.000+08:00

Is this month a bad month for u??? Well, i don't like wat i'm going thru now. Really hate it!

Firstly, my grandpa is in ICU at CGH... He had a blood clot at his head & has gone thru operation last saturday. And he's still unconcious till now. I understand from my dad, he had stroke too. SIGH! Although i'm not that close to my grandpa, i do love him... I'm praying hard that he will get well soon. So Fezah, u're not the only 1 who has been going up & down to CGH, me too... Hopefully ur grandma will be fine soon aite. Keep on praying gerl.

To u, Azmey... I know u will read my blog everyday. I'm sorry that i've been keeping away from u. Frankly i didn't mean too but i have no choice. U are nice to me & my family too but i'm not ready for any serious relationship for now. I really, really hope u do understand my feelings. I don't wanna get hurt again & i don't wanna hurt u either. So let us be friend for now aite.

I really have no mood for anything now. [sob... sob...]

2007-04-05T09:56:00.000+08:00

I'm in dilemma... It's been a month plus since he left me & so much things happened. His gerl called me up as she's not happy with me for advertising her BOYFRIEND's picture on my friendster... I donno why she's making a big fuss over a picture. He was my boyfriend too remember??? And i guess there's nothing wrong with it rite... Just for rememberance... Don't worry, i won't take him away from u & that's for sure... Btw, who's the one came in between my 5 years relationship huh??? I know i shouldn't put all the blame on her cos i heard that my boyfriend for 5 YEARS has been talking SHITS about me!!! That hurts! Really hurts!!! I always believe that wateva goes around, comes around... So sweetheart just be prepare aite. Maybe u gonna get hurt even worst than me. Ok Lynn, u should stop now... Haha.

Well, i have another problem. I've been in talking term with 3 guys now & i donno wat's wrong with them or maybe it's me... How can u love/like a person who u just get to know not even a mth or even worst a week??? I'm so curious seh... I'm so speechless when they told me tat they like me & ask if i can consider bout going to the next level... Haha. But it's true... If u ask me which 1 do i prefer...? None. Since when Lynn's heart is as hard as stone huh? I guess my last relationship really makes me stronger & not to trust guy easily. Wat will u do when u're out with this guy & another guy called u? Thats wat i went thru... I can't keeps on talking on the phone & let my date wait for me. And u can't juz shuts the other guy on the phone rite... SIGH! I thought i'll be free from stress when i'm single but it's as stress as having a realtionship... U know wat, i guess i need to have a break & maybe i should go for mani & pedicure... That's wat Reese Witherspoon did in Legally Blonde. Hahaha... So Fezah & Ayu, can i join u guys... Tak tahu malu seh Lynn... ;)

2007-03-26T14:21:00.000+08:00

I had a very tiring weekend...

On thursday nite i came home late. I was chilling wif Diana [yup tis gerl is in town], Madd & his bandmate at the nearby coffee-shop. They were talking about their new band, so me & Diana have to open up our ears & listened to wateva shit they were talking... Hahaha. Ok i don't mean it. On friday i was on leave, tot of getting up late but my mum woke me up asking for a favour. My bro had a high fever so she needs me to send my bro to the clinic... SIGH! After that i accompany Diana to Singgah Sana hall [hopefully the name is rite], which is located at Perkampungan. The reason why Diana was in town is bcos she needs to settle her wedding things. As i'm her wedding planner, i need to accompany her wherever she go... Thank God, everything is settled. But i'm not complaining lah... So don't change your mind of making me your bride's maid ok. Hehe.... At nite, went to Arab street to have a sisha. I'm not sure if you guys ever went to Samar before... The place is horrible! I rather go to Al-majlis or Ambrosia. The food is sucks & also the sisha too. Disappointed seh... But aniwae, we did take some pics lah. Haha.

The siblings....

On saturday... Hmm... Where did i go? Oh ya, i was at home but i went out at nite. Went to Cafe Delmar wif couple of frens & on sunday chilled out with Elly at CoffeeBean tampines... And today, received a call from Elly, asking me out & maybe Mas will be joining too...

2007-03-20T09:33:00.001+08:00

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart...
If you find someone in loves with you and you dont love him/her, feel honoured that Love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return, do not take advantage, do not cause pain...
If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you, and then Love chooses to leave, do not try to Reclaim it or to assess blame, Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time...
Remember that you dont choose love, Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you overflowing, then reach out and give it away...
How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys as you, even if our life and ways are different...

2007-03-19T16:34:00.000+08:00

I went to DXO last weekend, wif Madd & Farhan... Sat at esplanade first wif Adora, Chris, Russ & Mel. Had a couple of drinks then suddenly everyone feels like PARTY. So instead of only 3 of us are going, now there's 7... Kewl! And i still remember, it was about 11.30 he messaged me. Telling me to go over to Sentosa... He was piss off when i kept saying NO & i know he was really, really annoyed. But it's all thanks to you for saying all the SHIT words to me... If you make an effort to apologise to me, maybe i can consider but you don't seem to bother... I guess you have a very hard time to say the word SORRY but it's ok. I'm fine with it... Don't you ever think that i will reply to any of your messages or calls ever again. That's it boy, you're out of my life... Read Fezah's blog... Kesian adik aku ni, tak pasal-pasal kena prank emails... Nevermind lah gerl, treat them as a small kid aite. If they are mature enough, they wouldn't do all this stuff. Hang in there ok. So i guess i see ya later @ Hougang Mall rite... Are we having our dinner at Siam Kitchen or Gelare...? Wah, now i can imagine the ice-cream waffle on my table... Yum, yum.... ;)

2007-03-14T15:04:00.000+08:00

.....

Last saturday, my gerl get married to her dream guy after been together for 5 years... All the best to both of you, hopefully i will get to see the junior Yan & Wani soon... And may your marriage ends till eternity.... Insya'allah...

If you guys are curious bout which mak andam wani took, it's Rias Andaman.

2007-03-06T11:43:00.000+08:00

GUYS......

2007-03-02T10:15:00.000+08:00

Met him at Pasir Ris Park. Don't ask me why i decided to go. Cos i don't have the answer for it. He was hugging me so tightly & said that he MISS me! Tell u wat, Honey, don't say that u MISS me cos u're the one who let me GO! I guess u remember that rite... And how dare u asked me if u still have the chance to be with me again... Baby, if u love me with all ur heart prove it. There's no point of telling me bout ur feelings when u don't seem to show me any. And baby, trust me, i will never believe every single word u said & that's a promise. This is how 'NAIVE' i can be!

2007-02-26T12:54:00.000+08:00

My weekend.... First time in my life i put on my make-ups to work just because i have a Hi-Tea with Hady Mirza & Taufik Batisah at Orchid Country Club... I went with Kak Farah. I have to say that i really can't wait to see my idol & hear him singing live! But it's not Hady that i'm waiting for... It's Taufik!!! Yup, Taufik... Almost everyone waiting for Taufik instead of Hady... Hmm... Why is tat so huh? And he was so, so, so good looking in person. My knees are weak hearing him singing the first song & it is more weaker when he sang 'Usah Lepaskan'... Wow! He was so damn good, i have to say... If you're asking for their pics, i don't have any... Haha. The Hi-Tea ends at 5.30pm. After the Hi-Tea, i met with Aunt Has, Aunt Wama & Diana at the Esplanade. Madd having a performance at DXO. Guess wat?! Diana is engaged! Saw her diamond ring... Hmm... Wondering when will he proposed to me??? Sigh! Haha...

2007-02-23T16:06:00.000+08:00

I just want a man, Who will give me all his heart,

And will not do anything so bad, That would rip my soul apart...

I think i have found him, And i've given all i can for him to see,

That he's the most amazing man, And he means the world to me...

He says there's something special in me, He'll say so each day,

Well if i was so special to him, Why am i being pushed away..?

Don't hate me for loving you, Don't blame me cos i care,

I don't know what you do to me, but it's much too hard to bear...

I need to give up, trust me i know,

I've got to forget him BUT i can't let him go...

***My love for you is like an eternal fire that shall burn deeply in my heart till the day i die & even then i shall continue to love you FOREVER!***

2007-02-22T10:34:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna remember you

You're gonna remember me

I saw you with your new girl just yesterday

And I feel that I must confess

Even though it kills me to have to say

I'll admit that I was impressed

Physically just short of perfection

Gotta commend you on your selection

Though I know I shouldn't be concerned

In the back of my mind

I can't help but question

Does she rub your feet

When you've had a long day

Scratch your scalp

When you take out your braids

Does she know that you like

To play PS2 till 6 in the morning

Like I do

I can't explain this feeling

I think about it everyday

And even though we've moved on

It gets so hard to walk away

Our life from day to day

Hoping maybe you'll come back

And though I tell myself not to be afraid

To move on but it seems I can't

Though a new man has given me attention

It ain't the same as your affection

Though I know I should be content

In the back of my mind

I can't help but question

Does he kiss me on the forehead

Before we play

Show up on my doorstep(with a bouquet)

Does he call me in the middle of the day

Just to say hey baby I love you

Like you used to

I can't explain this feeling

I think about it everyday

And even though we've moved on

It gets so hard to walk away

The things we did

The way we shared our fantasies

Just you and me

My friend, my love, my family

How did we loose a love that seemed meant to be

Sometimes I kiss her and wish that it was you I'm kissing

Sometimes I miss him and wish that it was you I'm missing

Sometimes I hug her and wish that it was you I was hugging

And I realize how much I'm bugging

I miss you

So hard to express this feeling

Cause nobody compares to you

And you know she'll never love you like I do

2007-02-21T13:46:00.000+08:00

So much misery happened in my life... And i just can't make myself to accept it. I was kept in the dark for a year... I trusted him so much, so much. I trust him more than i trust myself & i didn't believe this thing happened to me. I sacrificed alot in this relationship. Alot... 5 years we've been together, all the ups & down we've been thru & it's the end. I've been giving in alot, most of the time. I can't sleep, i can't eat. Been crying the whole day. Trying to be strong, but i can't do it. Why must it happened to me? Can't he see all the sacrifices that i've done. It's all because there's a third party involved! I guess every person will or have gone thru this shit before... If u're asking me if the other party knows bout us, i believe the answer is NO! Hate him? No. I don't hate him at all. NEVER... Eventhough all the things that he had put me through, i can't make myself to hate him. Love him? Yes... Till now. Always. Will i come back in his life? I donno. Leaving him is the last thing on my mind. But will he? Only God knows. If he love me, he will.

2007-02-04T15:45:00.000+08:00

Last night, Dewi & me went to catch a movie. Well, we were damn bored so Dewi decided to watch it at Jurong Point. Ya i know it's far but it kills the time though... Hehe. Guess wat movie we watched??? A HINDI movie.... Salaam E Ish. A story of 6 groups of people, from different parts of the world & from different walks of life. Ignorant about each other's existence, but who end up being brought together by destiny, fate and LOVE. Nice movie & alot of laughter.... The story is about 3 hours & 45 mins. Hahaha... But i like the movie... Worth watching. After the movie, Dewi met her friend Firdaus & we went for a supper at West Coast McDonald. Reached home by 5.30am. And now, i need to go over to my aunt's place to bake a brownie. She called & said that she's too tired & wants me to bake it instead. Sigh! Can't wait for tonight... A final match between Singapore & Thailand. Really hope that Singapore will win the title this time. All the best guys! And hopefully there's no riot at the stadium... I'm keeping my finger cross.

2007-02-01T12:48:00.000+08:00

Well... After so long, this is my first & maybe the last time stepping the National Stadium. If it's not because of my mum i won't be watching this match. She really wanna watch the previous match, that was Singapore vs Malaysia but i just don't bother cos i tot it was going to be a boring game. I didn't expect to see such a full house at the stadium. [Sigh! I should listened to my mum. It was a very exciting game! Was really excited when i'm watching the penalty...] Yesterday, the stadium was packed again. Best kan... Wearing the same colour of shirt... But for myself, i was wearing a different colour. Hahaha... I never tot that Singapore will win this match. Really... Before this when i was in cheerleading, Singapore has never win when they're against Thailand & that's the reason why i never wear RED. Hahaha... Not a good Singaporean's Fan, i know.

2007-02-01T12:31:00.000+08:00

I had a very tiring day this week... Didn't get enough sleep & rest. Let me note down what i did & what i'm gonna do for this whole week.

Monday - Went out with Aisha & Hanim to City Hall.

Tuesday - Met him & spent the night together. Hmm...

Wednesday - Went to Kallang stadium to watch Singapore vs Thailand. Very exciting match...

Thursday - Going to Tampines Mall for shopping & settle my things. Hanim... Can u accompany me? Pls....

Friday - Going to Singapore Expo for Pameran Pengantin with my mum & aunt.

Saturday - Appointment with my hairdresser to get my hair done.

Sunday - Hmm... Hopefully it's gonna be my rest day. :)

2007-01-30T12:09:00.000+08:00

Met Aisha at City Hall yesterday. Was supposed to get my compact powder but it was out of stock... [sigh] So we just strolled at that area, while thinking where should we have our dinner. Well, i thought of having our dinner at Breeks but Aisha & Hanim said the food there isn't that nice. At last we took the shuttle bus & stopped at Suntec City. But we still have not decide where should we eat yet. Hahaha. So Aisha named out all the restaurant that's available there. Guess wat, we had our dinner at Pizza Hut. Boring... I had a pasta & it's to cheesy. Not nice at all. That will be the first & last time i'm gonna eat that.

Come Back To Me

2007-01-28T11:18:00.000+08:00

Everyday i try to play another game
But my heart can't take it
I try to find another boy
But all the while I can't face it
Why do I miss you so much?
I wanna stop to turn inside
oh baby please
give us one more try

I see you out with all your friends
Laughing it up as you pretend
to have a good time, I know cause I'm living the same life
I'm about to got to say
we can't keep living this same way
so I'll be the one
yeah I'll say it I'll say it I'll say it I'll say it again

Baby come back to me
in my heart I still believe
we were meant to be
together so whatever it takes

Baby come back to me
I should've never set you free
love maybe
come back

I wanna call, but then I stall
cause after all, I just couldn't take it
cause if your play was to push me away
you know that day, my heart you'd break it
I know we made a mistake
Can you stop your foolish pride
Come back to me
Lets try, lets try, lets try, Lets try it again

You know you miss your Baby V
And I can see that you think about me
so why do you act like you don't care
like all this love between us isn't there
I know that you're upset
I know I did you wrong
I know that you want me to pay for all the pain i've caused
but in the end it all comes down to just one thing
it's you and me
so I sing

** Believe me, i just love this song but not the singer. Haha**

2007-01-23T12:54:00.000+08:00

I was at home, watching Juara Lagu 2006. And i have to say that i'm proud of this singer... Read about her life & how she went thru just to achieve her dream. She has been in this industry for quite sometimes but she isn't as popular as other female singer. I'm not sure if u guys know how hard it is to make an album... WITHOUT any sponsor! Yup it's true, she did everything with her own sweat... I guess maybe becoz she's fat & that's the reason why no one wanna sponsor her. Well, the singer i'm refering to is Adibah Noor. And guess wat, she won 3 awards [Best Vocal, Best Lyric & Best Song in year 2006]. Should see how she perform that night... She deserved to win... This is the song that makes her to the TOP. -Terlalu Istimewa- Enjoy... ;)

2007-01-17T12:07:00.000+08:00

I woke up early today & i feel totally weak. My plan was to go straight to clinic before going to work... But when i reached Loyang point, i received a message from Mazlan saying that he's not going to work as he had flu. I have no other choice but to go back to work. I was damn exhausted... I didn't get to sleep last night just because of this stupid sickness. When i looked at the time last night, it was 2.30am, so i messaged Hanim saying that i'm not going to work. But in the end i still have to go... Sigh! I really feels like going home now cos i can't stand it anymore. I keeps on sneezing & my body is aching. Gosh!!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, HANIM...

2007-01-17T10:45:00.000+08:00

Yesterday after work Aisha, Dewi, Zana & me celebrate Hanim's belated birthday. We went to Arab St to have our dinner at Amirah's Grill. The food was so-so... I had their special course, consist of pita & garlic bread with i donnoe what sauce. Haha... Mixed grill seafood for the main course [it's the same as seafood platter @ Fish & co.] & caramel pudding for the dessert... By 9pm we're done.

So after dinner we went to Ambrosia. A nice place to chill... The place where u can get sisha... We bought a small cake for Hanim, ordered some drinks & not forgetting sisha too. Hahaha..... After had our last dessert, we chat for awhile then we get bored but thanks to Hanim as she's the survivor for the day. She brought Jenga from home. Hahaha... but it's true. So 5 of us played Jenga. Well... the highest level that we managed to get was 28th storey. Not bad though. It was fun anyway... Feels like we're young again.

I had fun... Hanim, i hope u had fun too. Well... Happy Belated Birthday, gerl. *wink* *wink*

A day at KL

2007-01-11T13:54:00.000+08:00

Yup i know it sounds crazy but ya... I went to KL for a day as Diana had a flight to KL, so me & Madd decided to go. We took a bus at 7pm & reached there by 12 midnight.

We stayed at Renaissance New World hotel. The hotel was great! I love the hotel so much... The toilet & the pool is superb.... Well, we didn't go to KLCC cos there's nothing that we can shop. So we went to Sogo & Sungai Wang. I didn't snap alot of pictures cos Madd forgotten to bring his digicam!!! I did remind him though... [sigh!]

After did some shopping, we went back to hotel. Rest for awhile then packed our things. By 9pm we went off from the hotel. Got to catch our bus at 10pm. Reached s'pore around 4+ & before 5am i was home. Tiring day... Didn't get enough sleep so i called my manager & told him tat i'm taking another day leave. Hahaha.... Notty me.

2007-01-05T19:24:00.000+08:00

What happened to me??? I feel so depressed... I have no mood for everything. Just wanna be alone. Strolling down the beach, staring at the dark sky & listen to the peaceful wind. Why am i in this state....? I wish my frens are here but they're too far away. Enjoying their holiday at phuket. If only i can be there with the rest of my frens... I really wanna release all the problems that are stuck in my head. Gosh! I'm having a company's dinner tomorrow but i don't feel like going. But i have too... I feel like hell now. I wonder if He's listening to me now. Do i have to cry to feel better???

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

2006-12-31T17:10:00.000+08:00

31st December 2006....

It's the last day of the year & it's Hari Raya Haji. Now i'm at my aunt's house where usually every relatives of mine gather around. So after celebrating this festive, all my cousins going out to celebrate the New Year. Hmm... but i'm not sure if i'm gonna celebrate it with anyone or even with him, cos till now there's no one who call me & ask me out... [sigh!] Well... i don't know. If there's still no one who gonna call me tonight, i guess i'll be celebrating it at home then, with my mum.... But it's ok.

When the time stike midnight, it's gonna be a new 2007 & also my mum turns 45. So... Happy New Year everyone & Happy Birthday mum. Love You!

2006-12-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

I saw 2 of my 'guy friends' today & coincidencely both of their names start with A. Well the 1st A don't seem to recognise me or maybe he just 'act' as if he doesn't know me.... WATEVA! The other A, i'm still not sure if it's him. Well... he did smile at me though but i don't know... Maybe or might not be the A i'm refering too.... Hmm....

Neoprint

2006-12-29T15:16:00.000+08:00

Used to collect neoprint as a hobby during my secondary school life....

It cost $4.00 last time but now it has increased to $10.00 [sigh!]

Shopping, shopping & shopping....

2006-12-29T12:13:00.002+08:00

Let me tell you what i did on my last weekend.... On Thursday, i treat my mum & bro at Sakura. After that day, i have been going shopping non-stop....

I met Dewi & Zana on Friday & we went shopping at Orchard. Every where we go there's a sign SALE! We stopped almost every shop/boutique but there's nothing that caught my eyes... At last we went to Far East & i grabbed 1 dress & 1 blouse. After finish shopping at Orchard, we went to Vivo City but all the shops are closed. So we went to Simpang Bedok for our dinner or so called supper.... Can u believe it, i had my dinner at 12am. Hahaha... Zana & Dewi wanna go to Mustafa Centre but i went home instead. Just too tired to walk.

Then on Saturday, i went shopping with my mum & aunt Wama. We went to Vivo City.... Reached there at 9.30pm & around 2am we're home. Grabbed 3 bags & a blouse[again].... I really can't stop shopping.... But i guess i have over spent my money! Hmm... And on Sunday i met Dewi & Zana again, but this time they're the one who did the shopping. Zana bought 3 pairs of shoes! I thought of buying 1 but they don't have my size. You guys should see how Zana did her shopping... It is so UNBELIEVEABLE!!! We went to Newton after that, had our dinner & then we went to Sentosa. What a tiring day...

Lastly on Monday, spent my day with my love. Hehehe.

2006-12-22T16:17:00.000+08:00

What is love without a trust?

There's no one who is perfect is this world & I believe everyone make a mistake before. Even me..... What is past will always be a past, there's no way we can change it. But people learn from mistake.

And when we realised it, do we have the opportunity to prove to our love one that we can change? Can we bring back the trust? And will they trust us like they used too? This is the problem which most of us is facing. God has given us life to live a day after another to realise our mistake. HE's giving us a chance rite? But why can't a human being? Why must we show our ego when we still love that person?

I get this phrase from Tengku Diana's msn but i change some of it. "Don't leave the person that you love, cos you will never know that he/she is the person that you're looking for."

As for me, i wanna be the best gal for my love one, where there's no other gal who can replace me in his life. And maybe one day someone will approach him and said,"You're such a lucky guy."

2006-12-20T13:45:00.000+08:00

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Congrats...

2006-12-18T15:44:00.000+08:00

I would like to congratulate my gerl friends for their 1st new born baby.

On 24th November 2006, Suraya has given birth to a baby boy, Dani Iskandar &

on 15th December 2006, Lina has given birth to a baby gerl, Farah Zahirah.

[Will upload the pics soon]

2006-12-16T14:28:00.000+08:00

I was on 2 days m.c. as my gum swollen so badly... It was horrible!

Firstly i went to polyclinic at pasir ris as Zana told me it's cheaper there. Reached there at 8.30am but the reception told me that this poly has no dentist. So she told me to try Tampines poly instead. When i reached Tampines poly, i told the reception that i'm having a swollen gum & i just need the dentist advice. Guess what she told me...??? "U have to make an appointment first." So i asked if i can make it today & she said,"It's fully booked & the only day u can make it, is on 4th January 2007." Shuts!!! Do i have to wait till 4th Jan just to check bout my swollen gum?! That was so unbelieveable... So i have to bear the pain till 4th Jan! That sucks!!! Really sucks! I have just wasted my time & my transportation money. In the end i made up my mind to go to my family doctor. Waited for 1 1/2 hours cos the doctor has an appointment at the hospital. When he checked my gum, he said," Uh.... that's bad. Well i'm gonna give u this medication plus 2 days m.c. I guess u really need to have a good rest." YAHOO!!! Thats great! Imagine i get 2 days m.c. just bcos of my swollen gum. Hahaha... That's not all, the doc told me if i'm going to pull out my wisdom tooth i will get 2 weeks m.c. How bout that??? *wink* *wink*

Now i'm not sure when should i make an appoinment. Should i make it end of this month or next month instead.... Hmm....

2006-12-06T12:37:00.000+08:00

Kekadang aku tertanya, adakah ini cinta yang sebenar? Adakah dia teman hidupku untuk selamanya? Mungkinkah apa yang aku impikan akan terlaksana?

Berbagai cobaan yang telah kami hadapi, hinggalah di suatu ketika dia meninggalkan ku hanya kerana mengikutkan kehendak bapa nya. Tetapi perhubungan kita tidak putus disitu. Dia kembali kepangkuan ku dan kita menjalinkan perhubungan ini semula tanpa pengetahuan sesiapa. Hidup kami sungguh bahagia hingga kini. Tetapi ke mana arah tujuan kami? Ia menjadi tanda tanya hingga kini... Umurku semakin meningkat, dan orang tua ku tertanya-tanya, bilakah hari bersejarah kita? Aku hanya mendiamkan diri. Pernah sekali aku bertanya kepadanya sampai bilakah kita harus sebegini? Dan dia menjawab bahawa dia tidak terlintas pun berfikir tentang itu. Hanya senyuman sahaja yang dapat ku ukirkan. Mungkin ini bukan masanya...

Jika sudah tertulis dia adalah jodohku, akan tetap menjadi jodohku. Kita yang merancang tetapi DIA yang menentukan segalanya. Aku hanya mampu berserah.

Ladies Nite!!!

2006-12-05T14:19:00.000+08:00

This is my friend Tengku Diana from Brunei.

She was in town last weekend, so we spent the whole saturday with her. Firstly, we went to VivoCity.

On our way to VivoCity

It was my first time to that place & it was so big... After touring VivoCity, we went to HarbourFront. We took the cable car that goes 1 round from HarbourFront - Sentosa - Mount Faber.

In the lift

Waiting for our turn

Then we had our dinner at Seoul Garden [Takashimaya]. Since it is so called like a buffet, we tried everything there... Hmm... I'm not sure if anyone spotted who had the biggest tummy. Hahaha... After had our heavy dinner, we waste our time strolling down Orchard Road.

Then we went to the beach. It was such a cosy & peaceful night... I love it so much. Around 2am we had our supper & we head home after that... I don't deny, that it was really a tiring night. No matter what, I had fun!!! Right gerls...

Tickle Test

2006-11-30T12:08:00.000+08:00

Did a Q & A from Tickle Test about "is HE the one?". After answering all the questions, this is the result that i received.

There's definite potential here - he just might be "the One"! Maybe it's too early to tell if this is really "Mr. Wonderful," but it sounds like you've found someone great. There's no strict definition of love, but there are some things to think about that might help you to discover if this relationship is meant to last. Do your best qualities seem to shine when he's around? Do you find yourself overlooking pet peeves just because he's the guilty party? Do you feel all warm and fuzzy just thinking about him, even when he's not there? When you think about your future, is he in the picture? These are just a few of the good signs.
There's no easy recipe for a long-lasting relationship, but you've found some of the main ingredients. Chemistry is definitely a great foundation. Then you add some trust, communication, and respect. Of course, a dollop of humor and a generous amount of romance make it much more satisfying. There are many more things you can add to make it better, but that depends on the needs of the relationship and the individuals. The two of you have clearly mastered some key elements and seem well on your way to building a loving, long-lasting relationship. If, however, you have some doubts about him, or if this relationship isn't truly what you want, listen to your inner voice. "Forever" shouldn't be taken lightly. Try to explore your fears and concerns thoroughly. And, remember, if he's not "the One", that's okay, because you'll find someone who is even better for you. It's a win-win situation!

2006-11-29T09:51:00.000+08:00

I was in the bus on my way home. A few bus-stop before alighting, a fat malay guy sat beside me.
Before i go any further let me ask you guys this question. Put yourself in that guy shoes, you had already occupied 3/4 of the seat & you know that the person next to you gonna alight at next bus-stop, what will you do??? Will you stand up??? Should be yes rite... But not for this guy... He just move his body to the side! For goodness sake...! The space that he gave me don't even fit one of my leg!! So i showed him a hand sign asking him to stand up, then he do it. Shuts rite... Honestly, i'm not trying to be rude/cruel towards fat people & there's no harm for them to sit beside me or even in whatever situation. But for this guy, i was totally clueless. What is he trying to do?! [Sigh!]

2006-11-27T14:08:00.000+08:00

Love is patient & kind

It is not jealous or conceited or proud;

Love is not ill-mannered

or selfish or irritable;

Love does not keep a record of wrongs;

Love is not happy with evil

but is happy with the truth.

Love never gives up;

and its faith, hope and patience never fail.